There is something about her that is beyond understanding, I can see her without even watching her, some power over me, and I think she feels the same way. What should I feel now? Relieved or feeling sad? Looking back, I see a few frames, I forgot how I felt or did I feel anything at all? It is hard to remember. What if someday I feel the same sense of someone staring at me, same suffocation I felt when I was rejecting it strongly. How would I give her a reply? I will stare back at her asking what is the matter with you?