She is after me.

 There is something about her that is beyond understanding, I can see her without even watching her, some power over me, and I think she feels the same way. What should I feel now? Relieved or feeling sad? Looking back, I see a few frames, I forgot how I felt or did I feel anything at all? It is hard to remember. What if someday I feel the same sense of someone staring at me, same suffocation I felt when I was rejecting it strongly. How would I give her a reply? I will stare back at her asking what is the matter with you?

Rage

I was like sitting in a boring lecture from morning to evening. Now, when I think about what could have been, if I had a good exchange with my friends, instead of feeling to smash at something. It is not correct to say that, it is like losing life under rage. Pickle helps.

 

I want to hit someone or something badly for the lost time.

 

Fighting

 Why would we postpone everything to the last minute? Maybe because we believe everything will happen according to the plan, but sometimes plans betray us when we reach the end of time.  Still, we choose to die fighting hoping for the light at the end of tunnel.
We don't have to win every time when we see the bigger picture. At the end, those losses matters less, and we win our life. I choose the deep breaths at the end of time.

Light

 Who would I be when I grow up? What kind of person I will be? I want to be someone who embraces solitude, the one who is seen at places where no one has gone before. Someone who hasn't been seen in a thousand years, and yet not returning until the Sun chooses the drizzle to shine with the dark clouds. 

Deja-vu

What if one day I stand in the middle of a moment, totally strange with no idea of how I got there with no past memories. Everything seems familiar only after engaging with them. What if then I say I have a party to attend to, what if my feelings are real, like these things are already happened, I wish I could hold on to such feelings so I could use for the future, but it is something we need some ability to. What if we could fix that moment for at least a few seconds, we could have saved ourself from feeling the suffocation we feel when we try to capture it like right now.

Strange

 The Night is not the same, it used to be a lot more fun, I can’t feel the comfort I used to had, the air feels strange. Where is the wind that used to be with me, someone stole that from me, now what is left is sadness, strange nights and silence.

HP

I remember that evening when I received this package, our personal moment, when we looked at each other for the first time, she wanted me to talk, it was twinkling for me to begin. Then we had our moments, she saw me fighting, winning, falling apart, then one day we started to heal.

Shining Lights

There was a time when I had someone near my windows, someone who was listening to the radio along with me. I could still see that tree watching us, rustling something which our naked ears can’t understand. 

When night calls me to be outside, the White flower smiles at me, and tells me to look straight to that something once shined with its full glory. 

Keep going

 Why listen to sad songs when you are excited about your life? You should go on till you feel like you had enough, it does not matter how long it is. There will be times when you feel like struggling, times when no songs will work for you, in such times, new music will find you. 

Healing takes Time

 You stay stuck liberating yourself in places where you wait for time to solve the puzzle for you. There is no sweet escape, you need to do what you cannot with your life. Then, one day you just move on.