God

I wasn’t unhappy when she rejected me, I was relieved. But they were never ready to let me go, so they haunted me like ghosts. When she said no, I was happy that it is over and also with the fact that I can move on from now on. What they did afterwards was playing mind games, creating doubts in me, otherwise I never had any problem letting her go. I wish God had found me then. I never knew at that time that God can turn things around and reveal who they really are.

There was no passion in it, it was like a chore for me. I knew nothing about her, I haven’t seen her properly, I never heard her voice, I don’t even know a single quality of her, then why should I chase someone like that? I wasn’t that desperate. Still, they manipulated me to search for an answer through other ways. The ways that disappear when God comes to the scene. Cowardly ways.

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